Went in for my scan today.
Biggest follie was 7.5mm
So they're doing what I suggested in the first place- upping my follistm dosage to 175 and keeping my menopur at 75.
About fucking time.
Thursday, November 6, 2014
Full of shit
Clearly I missed the memo that these meds will BACK YOU UP hardcore.
I haven't pooped in DAYS. I almost wish I still had my period shits. Because now it's like trying to shit a brick.
And I know the painkillers for ER and ET will only stop me up more.
Perhaps I should be starting the colace now... :(
I haven't pooped in DAYS. I almost wish I still had my period shits. Because now it's like trying to shit a brick.
And I know the painkillers for ER and ET will only stop me up more.
Perhaps I should be starting the colace now... :(
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Little Rituals
Even for those of us who aren't superstitious, we find ourselves participating in little rituals every day of our cycle. It's the one way to control something that is truly out of our control.
Right now, I have my evening stims ritual. It goes like this.
Put "Haven't Met You Yet" (Michael Buble) on repeat on my phone
Clean my IVF table
Lay out all of my drugs for the night
Wash my hands
Mix my menopur
Inject my menopur
Inject my follistim
Clean up my IVF table
Lay down for 20 minutes and listen to my IVF playlist while I focus on my ovaries
I can't meditate. I've tried. Lord knows I've tried. My brain just can't get that quiet. But I've made a playlist (below) of upbeat music, and I've made a conscious effort to lay down every night and spend some time visualizing my ovaries, visualizing my eggs growing (lots of eggs) and visualizing my body working to eliminate side effects of the drugs.
My Playlist:
Right now, I have my evening stims ritual. It goes like this.
Put "Haven't Met You Yet" (Michael Buble) on repeat on my phone
Clean my IVF table
Lay out all of my drugs for the night
Wash my hands
Mix my menopur
Inject my menopur
Inject my follistim
Clean up my IVF table
Lay down for 20 minutes and listen to my IVF playlist while I focus on my ovaries
I can't meditate. I've tried. Lord knows I've tried. My brain just can't get that quiet. But I've made a playlist (below) of upbeat music, and I've made a conscious effort to lay down every night and spend some time visualizing my ovaries, visualizing my eggs growing (lots of eggs) and visualizing my body working to eliminate side effects of the drugs.
My Playlist:
Ain't No Mountain High Enough- Marvin Gaye version
Beautiful Day- U2
A Beautiful Morning- The Rascals
Best Day of My Life- American Authors
The Best is Yet to Come- Matt Dusk version
Bless the Broken Road- Rascal Flatts
The Climb- Miley Cyrus
Don't Stop Believing
Haven't Met You Yet- Michael Buble
I will Wait- Mumford and Sons
I won't give up- Jason Mraz
Laughed until we cried- Jason Aldean
Let it Go- Frozen
No Less than a Woman- Lady Saw
Pompeii- Bastille
Rainbow Connection- Kermit the Frog
Roar- Katy Perry
Shake it Off- Taylor Swift
Somewhere Over the Rainbow- IZ
Unwritten- Natasha Bedingfield
Waiting on the World to Change- John Mayer
Wake Me Up- Avicii
What is Love- Janelle Monae
You've got a Friend in Me- Toy Story
Don't Worry, Be Happy- Bobby McFerrin
Here Comes the Sun- The Beatles
Beautiful Day- U2
A Beautiful Morning- The Rascals
Best Day of My Life- American Authors
The Best is Yet to Come- Matt Dusk version
Bless the Broken Road- Rascal Flatts
The Climb- Miley Cyrus
Don't Stop Believing
Haven't Met You Yet- Michael Buble
I will Wait- Mumford and Sons
I won't give up- Jason Mraz
Laughed until we cried- Jason Aldean
Let it Go- Frozen
No Less than a Woman- Lady Saw
Pompeii- Bastille
Rainbow Connection- Kermit the Frog
Roar- Katy Perry
Shake it Off- Taylor Swift
Somewhere Over the Rainbow- IZ
Unwritten- Natasha Bedingfield
Waiting on the World to Change- John Mayer
Wake Me Up- Avicii
What is Love- Janelle Monae
You've got a Friend in Me- Toy Story
Don't Worry, Be Happy- Bobby McFerrin
Here Comes the Sun- The Beatles
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
CD 4 Report
Well here we are- CD 4, and day 4 of stims.
As of my monday morning (CD3) scan I had 30+ follicles all < 8mm. A mature egg is anywhere from 20-25mm, so my follicles have a LONG way to go. But this isn't uncommon for me. This has happened every single cycle so far on injects. I'll have a whole lot of nothing, and then BAM, eggs everywhere.
So I'm trying to be patient, and resisting the urge to bump my medication dosage up myself. I have to be better at trusting my doctor. But I know on past cycles my body didn't do jack shit until I hit 225 IU of follistim, so I don't know why they're convinced that this 100+75 is going to work out for me.
Next scan is Thursday morning.
As of my monday morning (CD3) scan I had 30+ follicles all < 8mm. A mature egg is anywhere from 20-25mm, so my follicles have a LONG way to go. But this isn't uncommon for me. This has happened every single cycle so far on injects. I'll have a whole lot of nothing, and then BAM, eggs everywhere.
So I'm trying to be patient, and resisting the urge to bump my medication dosage up myself. I have to be better at trusting my doctor. But I know on past cycles my body didn't do jack shit until I hit 225 IU of follistim, so I don't know why they're convinced that this 100+75 is going to work out for me.
Next scan is Thursday morning.
Monday, November 3, 2014
Cooking for 3
Every IF blog that I've read recommends meal-prepping so that you don't have to worry about cooking after ER (egg retrieval). And since have a history of OHSS, I wanted to be doubly sure that I had nutritious and delicious meals ready to go for the first week of the 2WW.
OHSS (ovarian hyper-stimulation syndrome) happens when your body responds *too well* to the drugs. It results in your body basically being unable to keep water in your cells- leading to dehydration and fluid build up in the abdominal cavity. In rare cases it can kill you.
Most doctors suggest a high protein, high salt diet combined with electrolyte replacement fluids instead of water. Many people use either Gatorade or Coconut Water as their fluid replacement. I will be going with coconut water this time around. Since high protein, high salt diets also help, I decided that my meal focus would be on high-protein soups with a decent salty punch. I don't even LIKE beans, but for the purpose of not ending up in the hospital, I've decided to give them a good try.
So Sunday afternoon I spent some time prepping a bunch of REALLY delicious looking food from pinterest. Since I haven't cooked anything yet, and since I know I won't have time to properly plate and photograph my meals, I'm just going to link photos and recipes from the sources below.
All in all, it was about 3 hours of prep time in my kitchen, and my grocery receipts totaled just under $64 for the ingredients for all 8 meals! And if they're anything like our last batch of crock pot meals, each bag will cover dinner for 2 evenings PLUS a couple of lunches.
Or one evening of dinner of the hubs has seconds... or thirds... or fourths like a couple of my last meals!
Dinner #1- Coconut Curry Chicken
OHSS (ovarian hyper-stimulation syndrome) happens when your body responds *too well* to the drugs. It results in your body basically being unable to keep water in your cells- leading to dehydration and fluid build up in the abdominal cavity. In rare cases it can kill you.
Most doctors suggest a high protein, high salt diet combined with electrolyte replacement fluids instead of water. Many people use either Gatorade or Coconut Water as their fluid replacement. I will be going with coconut water this time around. Since high protein, high salt diets also help, I decided that my meal focus would be on high-protein soups with a decent salty punch. I don't even LIKE beans, but for the purpose of not ending up in the hospital, I've decided to give them a good try.
So Sunday afternoon I spent some time prepping a bunch of REALLY delicious looking food from pinterest. Since I haven't cooked anything yet, and since I know I won't have time to properly plate and photograph my meals, I'm just going to link photos and recipes from the sources below.
All in all, it was about 3 hours of prep time in my kitchen, and my grocery receipts totaled just under $64 for the ingredients for all 8 meals! And if they're anything like our last batch of crock pot meals, each bag will cover dinner for 2 evenings PLUS a couple of lunches.
Or one evening of dinner of the hubs has seconds... or thirds... or fourths like a couple of my last meals!
Dinner #1- Coconut Curry Chicken
Dinner #2 Moroccan Lentil Stew
Dinner #3: Lentil Vegetable Barley Soup
Dinner #4: Barley-Vegetable Soup
Dinner # 5: Crock Pot Broccoli Cheese Soup
Dinner #6: Slow Cooker Lentil Vegetable Soup
Dinner #7: Creamy Black Bean Chicken Soup
Dinner #8: Crock Pot Cream Cheese Chicken Chili
Sunday, November 2, 2014
Someday I know it'll all turn out...
I promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get....
I just haven't met you yet.
Saturday, November 1, 2014
It's like Christmas day for infertiles!
I am beyond ready to get this party started!
The anticipation of this afternoon is worse than the anticipation on Christmas eve for a little kid. For all the Catholics reading, it feels like I'm stuck at Midnight Mass right now... an endless midnight Mass!
We start our stims this evening. I'm BEYOND excited, even though my starting dose is relatively low.
100IU of follistim
We start our stims this evening. I'm BEYOND excited, even though my starting dose is relatively low.
100IU of follistim
75IU (1 vial) of menopur
I just took a good look at my needles for the first time, and it appears I don't actually have the injection needles for my menopur- just the fucking mixing needles (which I don't need!)
So hopefully I can get the proper injection needle (shorter- like 5/8 inch) vs this 1.5 inch monstrosity before I have to stab myself.
So hopefully I can get the proper injection needle (shorter- like 5/8 inch) vs this 1.5 inch monstrosity before I have to stab myself.
.... in 4 hours.
Let's get the party started everyone!
Let's get the party started everyone!
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